Have you ever...

had someone come into your life for a short period and make such an impression that you can not forget them?

I tend to dream a lot and most of the time I can remember my dreams at least for a little while. My dreams don't last very long but I truly believe that they have meaning and I try to dissect them when I do remember them.
When I dream about someone, if I have a way to get in touch with them I do. On occasion the person on the other line has said such "I was just thinking about you yesterday" or "I am really glad you called, thanks for listening", etc.
Keep in mind that I normally don't dream about people that I know... It's very rare actually. Most of the time I can't even see faces in my dreams.
So you see why when I do recognize someone in my dream I always try to contact them.
Anyway… There are people who cross our paths, briefly or otherwise, who make such an impact on our lives that we are forever changed…
Well... there's this person and for privacy sake I'll call her "Mary"... that has made this type of impact on my life. I have dreamed about her about 3 times in the last 6 months. The first two times I dreamed about her I left a msg on her phone. She never returned my calls. I dreamed about her again last night but this time I did not call her. The dream was disturbing because something was wrong with her but I could never figure it out.
“Mary” is related to a very good friend of mine. She is a Cop. She is a Cancer. (Boy is she). She is strong, formidable, soft, friendly, stand-off'ish, easy to laugh, determined... just to throw out a few adjectives...
We met at an Aids Benefit dinner my friend and I attended. “Mary” & I grew to be quick friends. Talked all the time. She even sent me flowers one day when it was an exceptionally bad day. (Yes, I still have the card from the flowers). Our friendship started to grow. Then as quickly as it started it stopped when several big things happened in both our lives. Our friendship was severed.
I have only talked to her once in the past 2 years when I attended the funeral of her Mother (at my friend's request that I be there for her since it was her relative also). We barely spoke 2 words to one another, and she looked through me. We did hug, but the warmth I had come to expect & appreciate was not there. I shrugged it off as grief, but real friends have warmth there regardless. (Maybe this is all I need to know in retrospect huh?)

No, we did not get into an argument. We did not even agree that our friendship would be severed. The decision was made by her. The reasons are hard to explain (yes I know them, and no I'm not going to share them).

At this point I'm stuck... Here is the IM conversation between me and my friend "Hotass".
Me... im blogging
Me... it is very emotional
Me... i feel 'pulled' in different directions
G... awe...put it out there
Me... i am
G... get it out of your head
Me... lol.. yeah i got to its like reliving every moment as i think about it... i guess thats good huh?
G... Thats very good! I think...think about what you have learned in each situation
Me... i've learned that there are ppl in this world that i am emotionally tied to forever
Me... and its not always good... but sometimes it is
Me... ck your mail
G... cool.... keep going
Me.. .i dont know what to say at this point
G... just type, do "what if"
G... what if you did talk to her
G... what if you got to see her
G... what if you never hear, see, or think about her
G... just vomit

So, I'm going to answer those questions.
1. what if you did talk to her - I'd first make certain she was alright after the dream I had. Then I'd tell her how hurt I am that she made this decision without even consulting me. No matter the reason. I'd also tell her that I love her and I'm there for her since I know she's having a hard time right now. Especially since her Mom died.
2. what if you got to see her - I would probably cry and we'd end up in an argument I'm sure. Lol
3. what if you never hear, see, or think about her - She changed my life forever ... I'll never forget her. She made me see things about myself that I did not even know existed. She is one of a very small group of ppl who have been able to do that.

As I continue on with this blog I will also tell you about the couple other ppl who have made this impact on my life.